........ I Live Filthy Fresh

MOVED TO TUMBLR

2011-08-17T10:29:00.000-07:00

Hope you didn't think I was done.

I live filthy fresh

Filthy Fresh

Smith Bros. Trading Post

The Commission SF

Lurk Star

BEER GOGGLES

2011-04-30T03:35:00.000-07:00

BFAM

2011-04-21T23:47:00.000-07:00

OVER LOAD

2011-04-18T11:29:00.000-07:00

PEACE PIPE

2011-04-14T11:14:00.000-07:00

BIG ADVENTURE

2011-04-10T03:10:00.000-07:00

SAYING GOOD BYE

2011-03-22T12:06:00.000-07:00

These were the last pair of shoes I would have ever thrown away even if they were beat. I always wanted a pair since the Hommie Videl rocked them back in the early 90's. I finally found some in 07 and I don't think I even wore them 10 times. My old apartment was dark and damp. Perfect for growing mold on a bunch of my shit. One day I pulled them out of the closet and they were covered in mold. That was the end.

DOIN' IT IN THE PARK

2011-03-20T12:01:00.000-07:00

UNI CREW

2011-03-18T22:37:00.000-07:00

Found this postcard from one of my old neighbors of him and his unitard crew.

DUUUUUUUUUUUH

2011-03-11T02:33:00.000-08:00

Bought this little book for a buck $1 a while back. I figured it might have something usefull in there. Looked through it again yesterday and realized I could have used this changing bag/dark room trick last week. Its makes so much sense. I bet this is what guys did before changing bags.

BUMMY HIKE

2011-03-09T15:47:00.000-08:00

Don't hike 45 minutes up a mountain, only to drop you shoe in water while trying to smoke one at the top.

THAT TIME OF THE MONTH

2011-03-05T15:46:00.000-08:00

SE HABLA ESPANOL OPEN 24hrs

2011-03-04T15:19:00.000-08:00

DRUNK'N HIGH OLLIE CONTEST SF

2011-02-24T10:27:00.000-08:00

Shot some photos of the High ollie contest. I took to many photos early on and didn't get any shot of the very end. All in all it was fun and I got a few good pictures. Check the video Ando put ttogether at the bottom.

Beauty Bar Drunk'n High ollie challenge SF

CRITICAL mASS

2011-02-13T12:23:00.000-08:00

I did my first critical mass ride by chance back in 2008-9. Only for about 5 blocks. Snapped this shot before I broke off to were I was going.

PAPER NEGS

2011-02-09T22:15:00.001-08:00

Shot a few paper negatives in the Kodak last month trying to figure out the exposure time. Also wanted to see if I could get some decent images with it. These scans came out pretty good, just very contrasty. Going to try out some printing filters and see how it goes.

WEEK 3, 4 and 5

2011-02-03T12:42:00.000-08:00

So I haven't been posting anything but I haven't given up. I haven't been shooting as much as I should have been. I have also been putting off the developing until my photo class started because its been so cold in my apartment I stay in the two rooms that are heated. I started last week but we have finally had access to the dark room. Now all I need is a decent scanner. So no photos for now. Next week it will be on and poppin.

BRAD WESTCOTT x P.E.P.

2011-01-18T09:56:00.000-08:00

Found this photo I got from Brad Westcott a while back. It was awesome to get a photo in the mail. I was really surprised. I didn't think anyone would send me a photo from the print exchange. I had to search him on the ol google too, check out his flickr. A lot of cool skate flicks. Tons of good photos in general. Putting one in the mail for him today, before I forget.

WEEK 2

2011-01-18T09:40:00.000-08:00

These are the non existent photos from week 2. I didn't make it out of the house much less the bed most of the week. Its not over yet.

WEEK 1

2011-01-12T21:01:00.000-08:00

My resolution for this year is to take at least one large format picture a day, six days out of the week. Leaving myself a day off to chill but most likely to process and post. That didn't happen though. Week one was ruff, cold, and nocternal but some how I was able to snap a few photos. I took two 9x12 photos I haven't developed yet and the rest on 120 film with awesome scans.

Just because I'm kinda blowing it with my new year resolution so far does not mean I'm throwing in the towel. I'm just giving myself a chance to get in the grove.

FREEDMINDS

2011-01-06T00:52:00.000-08:00

I had the pleasure of shooting the lookbook for Freedminds last month. When Kumasi and I talked about it I already had an idea in mind. I've really been influenced from watching old Film Noir movies lately and I wanted to do something story like. I just felt right for the shoot. Check the website edit below, check the site for some gear, check there blog out too while your at it.

COMING TO A CLOSE

2010-12-15T11:00:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to put a close to my new years resolution and all I have left to develope is a few rolls of 120, a hand full of 35 and a shit load of scanning. Nothing a few late nights won't solve. I will wait on scanning the medium format because my all-in-one scanner/copier/printer just doesn't do that well with scanning negatives.

These photos are from a contest in East Oakland put on by Roughneck Skateboards. At the time I just got a roll film back for my old Kodak and wanted to take it for a spin.

BABY NOIR

2010-12-09T16:42:00.000-08:00

WHAAAAT

2010-12-08T15:45:00.000-08:00

SWAG SURFIN

2010-12-02T11:21:00.000-08:00

ANYTHING YOU COULD GIVE IS GREATLY APRECIATED

2010-11-26T01:45:00.000-08:00

SUPPORT A WHEELCHAIR ACCESSIBLE LIVING SPACE FOR KAMON

As the youngest child of Amon and Cina Sherriff in a blended family of ten children, Kamon Sherriff Ross learned very early the importance of family, cooperation and caring. In his 20 years he has proven himself to be an obedient and loving son, a helpful and kind sibling, as well as a concerned and loyal friend.

His quiet confidence, easy intelligence and 6’5” athletic frame makes him a standout in any crowd. Although quite skilled as a basketball player he chose to focus his attention on academics rather than organized sports.

In 2008, he graduated from Stone Mountain High School in the top ten percent of his class, as a member of the National Beta Club and the National Honor Society. He was also an AP Merit Scholar and a Hope Scholarship recipient.

He entered Southern Polytechnic University in Marietta, Georgia as a software engineer major. In his five semesters there he has maintained a 3.5 GPA and a place on the Dean’s list.

Saturday, November 6, 2010 Kamon’s life was forever changed when a fall from a 3 story balcony left him with a broken spine. He is now recovering and graciously accepting the changed body and the new life that he must now live.

The Sherriff/Ross/Smith family would greatly appreciate any contribution that you could make to help us modify the basement in our split-level home to accommodate Kamon's new lifestyle.

Please keep us in your prayers. Gratitude, Peace and Blessings to you all!

DONATE

SPEECHLESS

2010-11-24T12:20:00.000-08:00

WORKING HARD FOR THE MONEY

2010-11-21T04:48:00.000-08:00

Photo - Ando Caulfield

Staying up late trying to work on a project but its so late I'm spacing out. In the process of going through an old hard drive I found this Polaroid Ando shot of me back when I used to work at Milk Bar. I miss the days of going home from work with cash in my pocket. I can't wait for all those Polaroids he was taking back then to resurface.

FUN AND GAMES

2010-11-20T12:51:00.000-08:00

SCRAPER............BIKE

2010-11-16T10:53:00.000-08:00

CHURCH AND STATE

2010-11-13T12:18:00.000-08:00

98-99

2010-11-11T02:09:00.000-08:00

1632 QUINN

2010-11-07T13:18:00.000-08:00

A shot from the day of filming for San Quinns part in the video.

REALITY BREAK

2010-11-04T13:35:00.000-07:00

TIRED

2010-10-31T13:30:00.000-07:00

AWW SHEET

2010-10-29T00:05:00.000-07:00

I picked up a couple boxes of 4x5 film and a sheet film developing tank from urban ore a while back. I knew I would eventually need the tank and for $6 I jumped on it. The film was like 60 cents a box, so if it was exposed... oh well. I had to trim the film down a little to fit 9x12cm for my old folding Kodak. Next time I'm going to use something better than a cardboard template and an exacto knife, but for testing the film it got the job done.

I had to wait till he was sleep to set up, focus and take a shot with that old camera. I can barely do it with a manual focus slr, he is to quick.

Sorry Sabah, I wish this one had come out better. I took ten minutes setting up the shot with some house plants in the forground and crap. Thats what I get for trying to use the whole negative.

Shot this last one of my wash tub sink, late night while developing film. I figured I might as well shot this last one and see if this sheet film is any good. Its defenitly worth what I paid for it. So I have about 25 more sheets to mess around with. Its should be fun.

LATE NIGHT SPECIAL

2010-10-28T13:28:00.000-07:00

HALF FRAME

2010-10-25T12:51:00.000-07:00

Test rolls from last summer shot on Olympus Pen and Canon Demi.

HELLA DORIAN

2010-10-15T12:32:00.000-07:00

GHOST RIDE

2010-10-12T11:14:00.000-07:00

THE JOEYS

2010-10-06T00:59:00.000-07:00

MINI VACATION

2010-09-29T22:52:00.000-07:00

WHERE MY DOGS AT?

2010-09-21T23:54:00.000-07:00

A while back I mailed a print of a photo I took to a guy who does a blog/print exchanged program. I really liked the blog and wanted to participate. I didn't want to just send him some crap, so while taking a photo class over the summer to clock some dark room time I printed some photos I liked and decided to send one to him. He's been doing it for 4 years but as of late has gotten lazy (self proclaimed) and doesn't post the photos, he just does a quick video thingy (bummer/bammer). So I'm in there at 1:34 real quick. I put the picture up also if you didn't get a good look. I hope he is still doing the exchange part of the deal.

FOR THE LOW

2010-09-19T21:00:00.000-07:00

If you know me, you know I'm all about finding deals. As much as I would like to keep it a secret, sometimes its better to share. In my search for good deals on film I've come up with a few online retailer that have good prices. One thing to keep in mind though is the price of shipping.

FILM ONLINE
ecamerafilms.com
freestylephoto.biz
ultrafineonline.com

DISPOSABLE CAMERAS ONLINE
thegiftmallonline.com
customcameracollection.com

CHEAP COLOR PROCESSING
Although its not online and you need to be a member, Costco is my shit right now. After paying $6 a roll for process only at some pro lab and having it be sub par. I'm all about paying $1.60 (they said $2 at first but I won't argue). It cost $5 if you want it processed and scanned to a disc. If you have access to a film scanner, find a friend with a costco card and get your C41 processed for the cheap.

If anyone knows of some other cheap spots please let me know.

LET THE MUSIC PLAY

2010-09-17T00:46:00.000-07:00

PRETTY MOMENT IN UGLY TRAFFIC

2010-09-13T00:39:00.000-07:00

SIDE BUSTIN

2010-09-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

GET A GRIP

2010-09-06T23:59:00.000-07:00

WHAT IN THE HAIL

2010-09-03T21:57:00.000-07:00

NO hANDO

2010-09-01T23:51:00.000-07:00

FIRST ROAD TRIP

2010-08-24T12:48:00.000-07:00

HE WAS SO TINY

2010-08-11T19:18:00.000-07:00

TESTING, TESTING

2010-07-26T15:48:00.000-07:00

I decided to take a beginning photography class this summer to get reacquainted with the dark room. It has been good. I'm finding it a little hard to complete the assignments. I just want to print my stuff. Its coming to an end this week, so I need to mash out my last few assignments for the class.

END OF THE ROLL

2010-07-24T00:30:00.000-07:00

BUS STOP

2010-07-22T23:33:00.000-07:00

MASSAN AND GENE

2010-07-21T19:31:00.000-07:00

BABY BEV

2010-07-20T19:00:00.000-07:00

M.R.T.

2010-07-19T23:03:00.000-07:00

SMOKE TREES

2010-07-05T14:49:00.000-07:00

GREAT GRANDS

2010-06-18T22:18:00.000-07:00

KHARA IN SF

2010-06-13T01:23:00.000-07:00

My niece Khara was so excited for her trip to SF, she packed her bag a month ahead.

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION pt. 1

2010-06-12T01:22:00.000-07:00

I finally got started on my new years resolution. Developing my own black and white film at home. Actually I've been working on it all year, piecing all the stuff together. I finally got the chemicals and have the space to do it. It wasn't quite like riding a bike but I didn't blow it. The film came out good (pat myself on the back). Now all I have to do is develop, scan, etc. the rest of 2009 so I can start on 2010 in 2010. I think that is do-able. As for the color and slide film, I might have to find better place than my apartment because I hear its kinda toxic. For now I have plenty of black and white film to work on.

LIL CHRIS

2010-05-27T11:09:00.000-07:00

ESOW x FTC

2010-05-20T02:29:00.000-07:00

RIDIN DIRTY

2010-05-15T01:09:00.001-07:00

WHITE JESUS

2010-05-13T01:03:00.000-07:00

BODY SHOTS

2010-04-16T11:03:00.000-07:00

In the spirit of Spring Break.

TUNE IN TOKYO

2010-04-11T13:26:00.000-07:00

MASSAN COASTIN'

2010-04-08T12:16:00.000-07:00

POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE

2010-03-24T03:41:00.000-07:00

RAPPIN WITH ANT

2010-03-20T04:18:00.000-07:00

HANGING WITH SANDY & KIMO

2010-03-18T03:58:00.000-07:00

Photo - Sandy Kim

DORE AND TOPR 99-00'

2010-03-04T14:02:00.000-08:00

SAY CHEESE

2010-03-04T13:57:00.001-08:00

LOST ROLL #1

2010-02-21T01:30:00.000-08:00

All that is left is the proof sheet. I never printed any out since it wasn't for an assignment. To bad, some really funny pictures of my little brothers.

FREESTYLE

2010-02-13T12:46:00.000-08:00

WHEN WE WERE YOUNG

2010-02-07T00:43:00.001-08:00

SKETCH BOOK WATER COLOR

2010-02-06T23:22:00.000-08:00

Old painting of Kahlil

DIY TILT LENS FLICKS

2010-02-06T22:58:00.000-08:00

RATS

2010-02-04T02:53:00.000-08:00

SENTIENT SKATEBOARDS

2010-02-02T12:06:00.000-08:00

myspace.com/sentientforlife

DIY TILT LENS

2010-02-01T12:27:00.000-08:00

I found a guide on how to build your own tilt lens a while back. It was so cool that I had to make my own and I did.

BUDDY LEE

2010-01-31T12:09:00.000-08:00

myspace.com/buddyleezle

ALEXANDER SPIT

2010-01-31T12:05:00.000-08:00

alexanderspit.com

J-BILLION

2010-01-31T11:11:00.000-08:00

jbillion.com

KODAK RECOROID 33

2010-01-27T19:45:00.000-08:00

I got the idea from some guy that dismantled an old Polaroid land camera to use as a Polaroid back and attached a Holga to it. I've had this Kodak Recomar 33 for a couple years and have never been able to use it. It didn't have a focusing screen and I'm not going to shoot or develop sheet film. Not anytime soon. I found a cheap land camera and gutted it and slapped the two together.

I made a focusing screen out of an old film pack and some vellum paper

I used my focusing screen and a tape measure to get my new settings.

The two fit almost perfectly together. I still don't know how/if I will fasten them together permanently.

a little tape for the light leaks. I had to put a piece of dense foam on the inside to block off the area of the battery compartment from leaking light.

Shooting instant pack film was a little tricky. I shot a pack of fuji fp-100c and only got these 3 images but learned a lot in the process. Next time I think I can get at least 7 out of 10.

I didn't mean for this to be a double exposure. This was a 1/2 second exposure with a flash light pointed on Francois face.

I pulled the film out to fast and got a half image. At least it was the half with his face.
All the extra developer made the print dark and spotty.

NOBODY KNOWS

2010-01-27T16:33:00.000-08:00

Who the hell took these photos? This is from an old roll of film from around 2001-02 and these pictures are smack dab in the middle. I took the ones at the beginning and the end. These... I have no idea. I asked my roommates and friends that were around at the time. Nobody knows. If your lighting candles and setting the mood you would remember that. Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad at who every took the photos or the girl in the tub. It just kills me that no one knows.

DOUBLE DOUBLE

2009-12-19T01:17:00.000-08:00

Earlier in the summer I shot a couple rolls of film playing around with double exposure. I have done it in the past, but never more than a shot or two on a roll. This is the first time I've committed to the whole roll. I even got my technique down for resetting the shutter with out advancing the film. I can't wait to do this again with a tripod.

DOING IT BIG

2009-11-22T03:13:00.000-08:00

After I hit it big in the super lotto. I'm going to build my self one of these with a few upgrades, and I'm not talking about 20 inch rims and a whistle tip.

BURNT ROLL

2009-10-12T23:55:00.000-07:00

These are photos from the SLO skate park back in the day. I had one of the gold fish eyes that screwed on top of my other lense and I was messing around trying to take some skate photos. I think this roll of film was in the glove box of my car for the summer and after the film was processed it was stored shotty. All in all I think the defects are the best part of the photos.

Tyler when we called him small fries. Way before the Killa.

Not sure if those shots are Mark-tallica or Shuan "kick-flip king".
Prob Shuan I don't think Mark had a back smith

I can't remember this kids name for the life of me

Jacob was a beast. Those are fakie ollies out of the launch ramp.

HAPPY HALF BIRTHDAY

2009-10-12T22:26:00.000-07:00

I have been dodging this blog like I owe it money. Its not that I don't have anything to write about. I just don't want to write about the things going on in my life or the same crap I read on other peoples blogs. Do you care what I'm eating? No. Do you care that my kid had a major blow-out (shit going of every side of his diaper)? No. Do you care I have cabin fever? No. Do you care that my kid sounds like Master P's hype man "uuuuugh"? Maybe. I guess I have been waiting for something to inspire me to post anything. I haven't found it. Don't get me wrong Francois is off the hook. I'm loving the time I spend with him, I'm just not trying to be that guy thats talking about every little thing my kids doing. I don't want read that.
I will say this... Happy half birthday to my little monster, Francois, Franky, Frankenstien, Buddha, the boss, fat man. Its like I'm a kid again. Singing, dancing, acting a fool. Thank you for making me feel younger and for the twinsies hair cut.

I ALMOST DIED THE OTHER DAY

2009-06-15T23:29:00.000-07:00

Last summer I came out to Atlanta for a week before heading up to NY, for my annual "If I don't go somewhere I'm going to lose my mind" travels. I hadn't been here for a while and had all kinds of shit stored down in my moms basement. Records, shoes, clothes, toys, books, photos, drawings, other stuff I should have junked before shipping cross country. I had been without these things for so long I was only interested in cashing out some of my collectibles and grabbing some clothes. Since I moved back to SF while on vacation and was feeling my new minimalistic zen lifestyle. As they say out of sight, out of mind. I didn't need that stuff I had done fine without. One thing that was on my mind was my photography binder of negatives. I had negatives from film I shot back in 96 to 99. I had been thinking about them for over a year. I couldn't remember what was on them, just that I needed them. I thought I shipped them back in the box of slides, video tapes and who knows what.

So this time the folder of negative was on the top of my list. The first chance I had, I tore into the basement closet and inspected each box. Nothing. Well there was something, but it wasn't what I was looking for. Some shoes, hats, old papers and books. I'm sure I sounded like I was going to cry when I told my mom that I couldn't find it. She told me to try out side under the deck. That sounded like a recipe for disaster, even if it was covered. The humidity in the south is thick. I was scared the negative might be stuck to the plastic sheets or even worse not there at all. I went down there and found a box of toys, a box of clothes, and 4 or 5 boxes of shoes. Not shoe boxes, but boxes of shoes without boxes. Probably 8 to 10 pairs each. That was a little surprising. Like I said out of sight, out of mind. Who cares about that though, I needed those negatives. Luckily they were in the box with the toys (Tupac doll, Mac Dre bobble head, tiny sneakers, airsoft uzi). I even had this old large format Kodak my brother bought of a crack head. I don't know if I can use it, but it will look good with the collection.

I can't wait to print some of these out. Its crazy. We were just babies. Skating, drinking, and just hanging out. I just regret not taking more photos.

CAMERA CRAZE

2009-06-05T03:07:00.000-07:00

I, I, I.... I got the Internet going nuts. Yeah right. I do have a problem with collecting cameras right now, but only for the low. I've been on the hunt, cruising swap meets, haggling deals, and sniping auctions. Point and shoots for all occasions. Hanni put me up on game of whats said to be more "epic" than the T4. We shall see. Just in case I got 2 for a good price. I love the Olympus XA series. Little batteries, hand wound, removable flash, can't beat it. All I need is the XA4 to complete the set, but the prices are to craze for me. Came up on a couple macro camera for getting all up in your grill and being in focus. More for taking photos of the baby and getting all up in his grill. Can't wait to see how my test shots came out. Ando gave me a Polariod land camera I can't wait to get some instant film for. Last but not least, a Canon sure shot ACE with a top view finder for only 2 bucks. The Goodwill in SLO was quite the come up. Can't wait for my next round of processing.

This is not the full group shot, a few are in various backpacks and diaper bags so I'm always ready for war.

JUST HIT THE CORNER STOOOOORE, YOU KNOW WHAT IM LOOKING FOOOOOOOOOOOOOR......

2009-05-03T11:33:00.000-07:00

I always thought there was a commercial to this song (the first one). Maybe I just made it up in my head. Don't remember it being a tape. What do I know. I was in High School. Shouldn't have been listing to beeralation any way.

BABIES HAVING BABIES

2009-04-27T23:51:00.001-07:00

Having a baby is no joke. We read and planned and shopped and showered and doctors, doctors, doctors. In the end we came out with a super sweat kid, a real pooping machine. That's how you know they are in good health. I don't have a PHD but soaked up enough game in the last few months to open my own practice and I have a poop chart from a new born class. Yeah a poop chart.

I didn't start taking photos till he popped out. Things were moving quick and I was busy with my fanning duties. Also wasn't trying have the first nude photos I take be of my girls cho-cha with a babies head making its way out. Too craze. I got enough mental pictures to last a life time and you can google that shit if you really want to see. Had to get one of the placenta though. I wasn't going to cook it or plant it, but had to catch a flick. It was a fatty.

PS. check how craze babies look when the first come out and thank you Kash and Kai for the diaper cake. its still on display, he's gotta grow a little for those.

JUST TRYING TO GET AN IDEA OF WHAT GEAR THE PROS USE...

2009-03-08T19:41:00.000-07:00

...for certain situations. Now I'm inspired to be a old school Paparazzo.
Check the second video for the lingo definitions.

DOES IT WORK?

2008-12-30T22:13:00.000-08:00

Came up on a Olympus XA2 at the swap meet for $3. This is the test roll. I love a good deal.

FUN WITH BIG BRO

2008-12-01T17:19:00.000-08:00

I was thinking of how I'm need of something really fun to do. I'm not talking about going to a bar fun. I'm talking about standing outside of the bar fun. Something stupid. Something childish. I don't even know what made think of it. Oh, the fact I want to do something that will put a smile on my face for the three days.

One time Kahlil and I were hanging out and had grabbed some food on the way home. We had a super 64oz soda that we filled up before we left, but couldn't even drink it. It was just starting to get dark and we had a good 30 minute walk home. I was drinking the soda and Kahlil said something ridiculously funny and I had to laugh. I guess it looked like I was puking the way I stood at the edge of the curb hunched over. That gave Kahlil an idea. We started taking huge gulping mouth fulls of soda and pretend to puke as cars passed. We took turns as the look out to get are timing right. The "drunk" one would stumble down the sidewalk and try to projectile vomit mouth fulls of soda into the bike lane as a car would pass. The other one would stay out of sight and tell the other "fire" to try get the perfect effect. Sometimes it was just right. Cars sometimes swerved and honked. After a while we couldn't hold the soda in our mouths without laughing. Watching Kahlil's fake zig-zag drunk stumble and the look on peoples faces as they passed by had me in tears. Just thinking about it has me tearing up.

I guess you can't force that type of fun. It comes spontaneously. All the stars have to be aligned.

ROBBIE ANALOG

2008-09-30T12:06:00.000-07:00

I broke my digital camera a while back. Well it still works but the photos come out kinda hazey. Its been to war. Right around the same time I was fiendin to start shooting film again. Wow, can you still get stuff for those things? People be acting like they aren't old and don't remember film. I heard all kinds of comments from "what's up with the geriatric camera" to "you and Momma Deanie (my grand mother) are the only ones still using those". Shit, I was shooting digital way back at y2k. I had this mean comp usa 640x480 jumpoff.The quality was crap but who cares. I got bragging rights.

PRETTY BIKE IS A WRAP. THANKS TO UPS CHICK

2008-04-25T01:15:00.000-07:00

COOL GOT HIT TONIGNT. BIKES A FUCKING WRAP. HOPEFULLY THE PERSON WHO HIT ME DOES RIGHT BY ME. I ONLY HAVE A CUT HAND AND A SORE KNEE. WELL AND A BROKEN HEART. WHATS THAT WORTH? SHIT